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Oh, writers block. It has hit me hard this past month. I have not had much motivation or inspiration. I still don't, but I figured I could give some sort of update on our lives, for those of you who read this thing.

Anniversary

Tom and I celebrated nine years together on May 28. Nine years! We found ourselves very broke by the end of the month (back-to-back IUIs plus loads of unexpected expenses will do that to you), but Tom managed to throw together a Friday night getaway for us. Many thanks to my brother for using his points to get us a hotel room at the Conrad (they were awesome and upgraded us to a suite!) and my dad for paying for our amazing dinner at St. Elmos!

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It was such a fun evening. The hotel was beautiful and the food was delicious. And I got off work a little early so we could relax in the hotel beforehand and get dressed up for dinner!

[caption id="attachment_1647" align="aligncenter" width="300"]986825_10152111382309149_469555839_n All ready for our date night! Let's ignore my uneven sleeves.[/caption]

 

The next morning, we headed out for a delicious breakfast. I don't remember the name of the place, but it was awesome and had delicious spanish lattes.

[caption id="attachment_1641" align="aligncenter" width="300"]Heading out for a very late brunch! Heading out for a very late brunch![/caption]

Tom's anniversary gift for me was this custom print of Isaiah 55 made by our dear friend Eva. This text was really meaningful for us during our pregnancy and miscarriage earlier this year. A day before our anniversary, I told Tom that I wanted this chapter on our wall. He already had this in the works at that time. I love my sweet husband.

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Books

I read Tattoos on the Heart by Gregory Boyle this past month. My friend Stephanie suggested I read it, and I'm glad she did. It had a similar effect on me as The Hiding Place, reminding me of the beauty of the gospel in the midst of tremendous suffering. I thought Father Boyle's theology was gorgeous, and I loved reading how it played out in the lives of the gang members with whom he works.

Running

I ran quite a bit in college, but I very rarely enjoyed it. It was part of my obsession to stay fit and thin, but I didn't have good form and running was always painful. But this year, my dad has helped me work on my form and cadence, and it has been amazing to actually enjoy running. It hasn't made me thin like it did in college, but it has made me feel much healthier. I ran my first 5k at work and managed to finish in a little over 30 minutes. I've been forced to slow it down this week, but that has been kind of nice, realizing that a slow jog is about as easy as walking used to be for me. It's debatable whether exercise helps or hinders fertility, and I've gone back an forth on whether to work out during treatment(or pregnancy). But running has been saving my life lately, and I feel so much better after doing it, so I figure it can't be awful.

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Gracie and Riley

Oh, how I love them. They are the most perfect little fur-babies.  We took Riley to the church picnic a couple weeks ago, and he had so much fun. It can be hard to be around a lot of people with kids, but having Riley with us made us feel more whole. I know they are not "real" children, but they do a great job making us think that they are. They've had a big role to fill during these last 7 years of infertility, and they have filled it so well. I can't imagine life without them (so lets not think about how old they are getting).

[caption id="attachment_1653" align="aligncenter" width="300"]Give me pizza, please? Give me pizza, please?[/caption]

 

[caption id="attachment_1640" align="aligncenter" width="300"]Such a happy girl! Such a happy girl![/caption]

 

[caption id="attachment_1643" align="aligncenter" width="300"]We look judgy, but we are actually just quite sleepy. We look judgy, but we are actually just quite sleepy.[/caption]

 

So, there we go. A brief update on our life these days. Hopefully some inspiration will hit me so I can start writing here more frequently again!



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