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Update

So, life these days. It's a bit weird.

Tom graduated from Fuller in June. We prayed for a job. We thought we'd found one, twice. Neither panned out. We were pretty heartbroken, because we felt very called to leave LA, but we had no way of leaving without a job.

Then, Tom's dad and step-mom offered to let us move in with them. It seemed crazy at first, but then we started thinking about it... we could live for cheap, be near family for awhile, and I wouldn't be locked into a year-long contract, so Tom wouldn't be prevented from continuing the job search.

So we did it. We moved to Houston Aug. 5th. I quickly and easily got a job as an adjunct faculty member at a nearby community college, teaching Introductory Chemistry. It pays very little, but it helps cover our expenses and is good for the resume. And I only teach 2 days a week, so I get to rest. These last 3 years have not included much rest, so I am enjoying it.

And then, a few weeks after we moved in, Tom got a random call from a random place. And that random call turned out to be from a pastor at a church that looked amazing. Beyond amazing. And the position is, quite literally, Tom's dream job (small groups/discipleship pastor). Tom had a skype interview and was convinced that he had performed horribly. But they must have thought he did ok, because they called back 15 minutes later wanting to fly him out. So, Tom was flown up to Indianapolis for 4 days, and he fell in love with the church.

Now we are prayerfully waiting news from this church, hoping that the news will be good. If it isn't, I'm not sure what we'll do. But I know that Grace will be there to carry us.

This hasn't been an easy process, but I'm beginning to see some fruit from it. I'm beginning to see my heart take on a new form. I still hurt often, I still cry often, I still scream and yell at heaven because He is not giving me what I want right now. But I'm also learning to sit, to wait, to be loved in this in-between. And He's carrying me; I know He is.

I remain confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.

Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.

Psalm 27:13


Comments

  1. StephanieSeptember 28, 2011 at 9:16 PM

    You have no idea how much I needed to read that verse today! So good to hear an update from you guys. I know the waiting is rotten - wish there was some may I could speed it all up for you. I've been praying for you though and will keep it up! I would LOVE it if you guys moved to Indianapolis - that's not so far and it's actually our denomination's headquarters (which means sometimes we're there for conferences, etc). Anyway, glad to hear that you're getting some rest - I'll keep hoping for good news!

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  2. RebeccaSeptember 29, 2011 at 5:42 AM

    Thanks, Steph. I was reminded of the verse while writing the post and did a search for it, and I've clung to it since finding it. I love that he says "the land of the living." Sometimes I get so tired of knowing that I will receive good at the end. Even though I delight in that knowledge and I am sure I will love it then, but I would really like to see something good in this lifetime as well. And I like knowing that David prayed for that too :)

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