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The Lord is faithful in all his words,
and gracious in all his deeds. *
14The Lord upholds all who are falling,
and raises up all who are bowed down.
15The eyes of all look to you,
and you give them their food in due season.
16You open your hand,
satisfying the desire of every living thing.


Today, I am choosing to believe that the Lord is good. Even when He doesn't give me what I want. And, even more than that, I am choosing to believe that there is a reason why I am not getting what I want. I believe that His purposes for me are greater than my short-sighted wants and desires. And I believe that His purposes for me are good. They are good for the Kingdom, and they are good for me.

I believe, Jesus... please help my unbelief.

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